Forget To Want

Like I'm going to tell you how I am.
You know you don't really care.
That nicety is hollow and wants something more.
That's how I am.

I've got so much hate roiling inside me
Though you'll never see a drop of it.
If it's just me,
I'm the only one I have to hate.
Forget about me; we'll both be better off.

Forget what you were taught.
Forget what you know.
Forget what you think.
Right now, in the place you’re at,
Thinking’s just going to dig you in deeper.

Stop and breathe.
This was just a nightmare
Tattooed into your mind
Burning on your lips.

Don't complain about the things you couldn't change
Or the things that were never yours to start.
Be good, get better, or give up
Your only choices or to go home.
If you can find that at all.

It doesn't hurt here.
I don't want to be in pain.
I don't want to be miserable.
I don't want you to hate me.

Well, you can't always get what you want.
I need a reason to believe.

You'd Think With An IQ like Mine I'd Be Smarter

Well, shit. I'm sitting at the cafe on campus I usually sit at and little oblivious me just noticed that it started raining. And what am I wearing? Well, currently a t-shirt and vest, but I'm sitting on my leather jacket. You know, one of those ones that have no hood? I also have no tie to do up my hair for when I turn into a fuzzball.

Today's gonna suck, I can tell.

I've Got A Feeling

A bad one. Well, I'm not exactly sure if it's for Bad for certain. For a minute or three I thought that it was that feeling I get when I know I've forgotten something, but then I realised that I don't need a lot of stuff today. So now it's more a sense of foreboding, that something is going to happen today and I probably won't be pleased with it.

Unless the string of Bad Days has finally knocked my brain into or out of whacked and I've gone fully schizo. I'm probably going to be really jumpy and paranoid today, and in the end it'll probably be for nothing at all.

Did somebody die? Is someone sick? Has a plane crashed into something today? The not knowing is killing me.